Everything that is good in life, is on the other side of fear.
Before embarking on my yoga journey, I felt that lacked a lot of personal qualities and I held a lot of fear in my heart. Fear of failure, fear of public speaking, lack of confidence, inability to love myself more and say no when I needed to. On many occasions, I ended up doing a lot of things I didn’t want to do just to avoid making people upset. I was basically really timid, shy and soft-spoken. It’s quite hard to believe I could be such an individual because I was a flight stewardess (often portrayed to be confident, with good people skills, outspoken… etc.) for so many years. How I got through all those years, is still a mystery to me. This timid-ness was a huge barrier for me as impeded me from growing and making progress towards becoming a better me.
During our yoga theory, we learned about chakras and it was so interesting! Each chakra has certain qualities or characteristics when it is healthy or unhealthy. There are 7 altogether. If you worked on chakra specific postures, more qualities of that chakra that you’re working on will show up in you. Ideally, it would be nice to be all rounded and balanced in all the chakras from the bottom up, but the top three chakras that I really want to work on are, the third, fourth and fifth chakras as it has all the good qualities I would like to cultivate! I got excited while learning this because it means that I can slowly begin working towards becoming the person that I really want to become! Also acknowledging that it is not instant gratification, but it is something that will improve over time with consistency in practice, and I have decided to make that first step to commit to it.
I am feeling a lot of physical, mental and some slight emotional shifts and I think I will just have to trust in my own practice and slowly grow into a person that I can be proud of. 🙂