The Bakasana pose has always been one of the most challenging poses for me. I am not afraid of falling on my face at all, as evidenced by the number of times I have fallen in class, but the times I did not manage to stay in Bakasana are also the times I am not believing in myself. And this is a problem that is as clear as day in my life.
I have always wanted to do many things since I was a teenager, but I have not embarked on any of those ventures. I have always opted for the safe route, avoiding risks and reminding myself to be content with what I already have. But of all things, I know I doubt myself to make things work and I worry about the risks too much to even start.
A handful of times in YTT, when my mind feels focused, and free from doubts and heaviness, I lift and I stay in Bakasana and it feels amazing. To be able to do the crow pose feels like a win, but to have that taste of freedom in the mind is something else. And I hope I can nurture this freedom in my mind and start living more.
RYT200 Aug’20 Weekend