Ida on hormones
PMS. All women know it and most women are affected by it. Now imagine something even worse – PMDD. Have you ever heard of it? Pre menstrual dysphoric disorder. Yup, that’s what I have.
I have always had PMS so I have gotten used to planning my life around it, but after I had my first daughter things spiralled out of control. It got so bad that it affected my entire life and my relationships in a very bad way. The sad thing is, I didn’t know what was wrong with me. I would feel and behave horrible for 10-14 days per months, and then try to fix all the things I had messed up for the remaining two weeks before it all started again. I thought I was suffering from depression, or even worse – schitzofrenia.
One day I was scrolling through my Facebook and an add came up with a quiz, “are you suffering from depression, or is it PMDD”. Now I had never heard of PMDD, but I had come to the point where I realised I needed help with my moods so I clicked the link and took the test. When I got it all in black and white it became so clear to me. How could I have been so blind not to see that my hormones were responsible for it all?!
I only knew of PMS and that it affects most women to different degrees, but usually only lasts a few days before the period and then ends once the period starts. Since that didn’t apply to me I never looked deeper into it, instead I thought I was going insane.
I did some more research and ended up seeing a doctor who suggested a mild antidepressant for me to take 12 days of the month. I was really hesitant to taking that sort of medication but also felt relieved to have found someone who took my problems seriously and who offered immediate help.
And the meds really helped! It was such a relief and I am forever grateful for them, but (there’s always a but, hey) they also came with side effects and I had to gradually increase the dosage to get the same effect as when I first started taking them. I came to he point where I started questioning if I wanted to be reliant on a chemical to manipulate my brain for the rest of my life, but at the same time I was terrified of going back to where I was before. I consulted my doctor who recommended easing the medicine out very slowly, and a few months ago I took my last pill. Such a relief!
It has been easier than I expected but I have to be very observant on my mood and make sure I don’t stress too much, eat regular and healthy meals, take time to do my yoga and get enough sleep (easier said than done with 3 kids under the age of 7).
My period came yesterday as a total surprise to me. Not only was it 5 days early, but more importantly, I hadn’t noticed it was on its way. There had been no outbursts (well, almost anyway), no headaches, no picking fights (husband might not agree), no pain – nada! I can happily say that all this intense practicing, breathing, meditating and all the inversions have helped me so much. Just like our dear teacher Jessica predicted!
Yoga can really help trough all stages of life. I will try my best to take the time to do my practice regularly even after my course has finished as I can see the tremendous improvement it has on my hormones.